Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Fake It Like You Mean It


It’s getting pretty scary that I prefer having phone sex with Mr. LA rather than calling up any of the same ‘ol NY booty and actually getting it on. But it’s just always SO good and, because I’m using my own devices (well, not really devices as I broke my second vibrator in 7 months about two weeks ago), the O is unconditionally guaranteed.

In the case of Monday night, the O made three appearances in the matter of about 10 minutes. This is because Mr. LA has quite the descriptive tongue (it’s also quite descriptive when he uses his tongue in person, but that’s for another time). The first O came on suddenly (pun intended, I guess) about two minutes into the call (ok, while he truly is verbally inclined, I had begun the festivities a few minutes prior to the phone ringing). A few minutes later, after a somewhat lengthy soliloquy involving my hands tied behind my back while having my face f*cked – BAM: O number two. This time, he came along for the ride. (The great thing about phone sex is that you can time orgasms pretty well – unlike during real sex when the girl fakes it 9 times out of 10 when he’s finishing up. We watch porn, we know how men think it’s supposed to happen at the exact same time. Wake up, guys. Puh-leaze.)

Anyway, usually that would be all but I asked him to keep going. O number three was right at the gates (oh, it’s so great to be a girl). And go he did. In a flurry of description – none of which I can remember but I’m sure it included “fingers” “lick” “inside you” (the usual send-me-over-the-edge suspects) – I was coming again. But strangely, so was he.

“Twice in two minutes? Wow,” I said, impressed that thoughts of me could turn him on so much.

“No, just once.”

“But it really sounded like you did. Like, exactly.” (He has a very interesting, multi-tonal and varied O that’s quite distinct.)

“No, just one time.”

“So you faked it?”

“Yup. For you, to turn you on.”

So there. It happened to me. Now it might be harder for that to happen in person but it’s made me feel kinda bad for all the times I’ve faked it. But, unfortunately, I really don’t have the time to call 38 people and apologize.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Lezze-Faire

Here’s some irony. When I was in 5th grade, I had an INSANE crush on a little blonde girl named Elizabeth. I know I was young, but there was definitely a sexual attraction there (I found the joy button around age 8 or 9, so I was well versed in the power of persuasive though + self-love). Anyway, because I went to Catholic school, I knew that these thoughts were the work of the Devil himself (or perhaps herself in this case). So I would literally pray, PRAY that I was not gay.

Fast-forward about 17 years (holy shit – husband #1 where are you??? Oh right, LA and you don’t want to get married. To. Me.) and 4 bedded-women later, I am praying for just the opposite. I WANT TO BE GAY! But, sadly, after being with women, I know I’m not. Why?
1. We’re annoying. Needy. Whiny. Now, I’m the queen, the Helen Mirren of these grievances but when they are bounced back upon you – WOW, fucking exhausting.
2. We women apparently like to cuddle for HOURS, including all the hours we are sleeping. No, no, no! Right before sleep, yes, sure. In the morning, yes, sure. As I snore and drool and dream about people more attractive and wealthy than you – NO.
3. We want to go to “brunch” after staying up all night having sex. Um, no. Yes, I want to eat – but I don’t want to go sit amongst people and be guilted into drinking a free mimosa.
4. I like men. Naked men. On top of me, to the side of me, behind me – way too much.

However, heterosexuality has really not been too kind to me lately. And, everywhere I look, there are HAPPY LESBIANS! I want to be a happy lesbian – it looks so fun, like a big sleepover party with lots of puppies and shopping trips and babies without the pain of childbirth! (Babies from legendary rock sperm, even.)

I mean did you see the Oscars? Did you see the insane amount of happy lesbians there? There were, like, two happy hetero couples (and, no, I don’t mean the faux happiness of Will and Jada, Tom and Katie, John and Kelly).

Just look at them! Glowing! Radiant! Perhaps hormonal, post-menopausal – sure – but nonetheless it sure is chic to be a gay lady. Ok, so they’re not all PRETTY, but they have better hair (ok, not Ellen) and better clothes (ok, not Ellen) than lesbians past. Oh how gay it would be to be gay….






Friday, February 23, 2007

T-Time!















I have too much shit to do today to fill you in on my quest for ass. I will tell you that I ended up having some hot phone sex last night...so that is making today all the more bearable.

To keep you entertained, here is a titty pop quiz! Click below to see if you can tell the difference between REAL or FAKE boobies. I got 15/20.

Thank you to PD for filling the mammary void.

http://www.mazafaka.ru/lol/btest/index.php

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Back in the Virtual Saddle Again?

After meeting a school teacher with a coke problem and a REFUSAL to answer the phone anytime before, during or immediately after Smallville, The Daily Show, The Sarah Silverman Show, Heroes, Rome (and about 20 other shows) on craigslist (not the smartest move, I know), I am thinking about rejoining the world of less seedier online personals.

Option A: Nerve

I was on Nerve for about 3 years and ended up sleeping with about 10 men who all live within 4 or 5 blocks from me. It’s seriously like a landmine of penis past out on my streets now. I signed off Nerve because: A. I pretty much went through all the men I found interesting and B. When I actually took stock of the men I found “interesting” it scared me. “Really, ANOTHER freelance writer/aspiring musician/unemployed graphic artist? Wake up bitch! No one has bought you dinner in 2 years!"
PROS: The dudes are cute.
CONS: It’s haunted by now.

Option B: Match
I tried this for a month or two. Now, it’s not that I have anything AGAINST Staten Island garbagemen or 52 year old “ice sculptors” from the Bronx, but that takes “dating against my type” to new lows. Have you ever waded through Match.com? Seriously, it’s not that pretty.
PROS: NEW dudes.
CONS: I don’t want to see last night’s lay on the back of a garbage truck.

Option C: eHarmony
Sigh. I tried this too. That fucking Dr. Neil Clark Warren won me over, one depressing Sunday afternoon when I was drowning my hangover in greasy Chinese and watching Iron Chef America. Maybe it’s the hopeful music (“This will be! An everlasting love!”) or maybe it’s just how sickeningly cute the couples are (you can tell they all used to be desperate too). However according to eHarmony, my soulmate (or soulmateS as it were) all live in the bowels of New Jersey, teach high school biology or chemistry and LOVE football. WHA? No fucking way. Plus, they are all Italian and fat. Where are the JEWS that I lust after?? The Yankee fans in yarmulkes?
PROS: The slight chance that these men actually want a relationship.
CONS: NO Jews, apparently.

So, I leave it to you – my 8 or so faithful readers. A? B? or C?
(write-ins are acceptable too, but you must give REASONS!)

Saturday, February 17, 2007

men i want to sleep with

well, i have officially hit the two month mark. i have not had sex with anyone - male or female - since december. and i am strangely ok with this.

however that does not mean that i don't think about sex ALL the time.

and so, in honor of my regenerating hymen, here is a list of men i want to sleep with...

1. brian williams - sure, he looks like guy smiley (the game show host muppet from sesame street) but he is so funny and down to earth. at least that is the impression his publicist keeps putting forth. anyway, i want him to tell me about the day's events in iraq while carassing the slope of my back. (foreplay + foreign news = illicit behavior)

2. joaquin phoenix - ok, for those of you who actually know me, you know how much i am obsessed with this man. i sincerely believe that he and i belong together, and whenever i lay back and daydream about him i can TOTALLY relate to all those crazy fuckers who stalk celebrities.

3. forrest whitaker - i want to fix his wonky eye. ok, i really just want to go to the oscars(R).

4. my drug dealer - because i am so sick of paying for this shit.

5. jack nicholson - i know, i know, he's like 92. he probably has a saggy ass and balls down to his knees, but it's jack-mother-fucking-nicholson. come on, even you dudes out there would bend over backwards for him.

6. hugh laurie - i typically hate foreign men. but this man is so fucking hot and funny. anyone who doesn't need writers needs a blow job in my book.

7. ray liotta - ok, in all honesty, only if it were 1991. because, come on, fucking henry hill is pretty close to nirvana.

8. your dad - that's right. i want to hit it. again.

9. my dad - kidding. i just want to see if you are paying attention.

10. anyone willing - yup, you heard me. just have a pulse and a penis. didn't i mention it's been TWO MONTHS?

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

eat me


this is fucking awesome....




where is the love?

Dear future love of my life -

Ok. You will one day discover how annoying and critical I can be but, I'm sorry, I just have to start now.

WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU? Listen, I know that you are crazy busy/stressed at work/married/struggling with your sexuality but it's about time you get your shit together and find me.

I don't want to get married tomorrow. In fact, I don't even want to live together until at least late 2008, but don't you think we should at least be DATING now?

K, whatever...you're stalling. Just don't blame me when you finally come around and I have already slept with 70+ people and done a bit too much homemade porn. I was ready for you but you left my horny ass no choice.

xoxoxo

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Born Again?

Its been almost two months since I've had sex.

Now, for some people, that may not seem very long but, for me, it is. I don't think I have gone 60 days without penetration since I lost my virginity in 1996, but, any day now, I am about to reach that mark.

While part of me does wish for such contact, I must admit that the choice has really been mine. And it's actually been quite freeing.

I felt a connection with the last man I slept with but it turned out to be one of the more hurtful experiences of my dating life. Not "hurtful" in the "you've broken my heart" sense, but more in the "ouch, are you fucking serious?" sense.

I could have gotten laid in early January (and late January; and this Friday) but I chose not to. That's because I refuse to indulge bootycalls and deny those I barely know/knew any physical contact...

I'm not saying that I will need to be in love to make love (or have sex) again, but it's just never going to be as easy. I think I can say - with a lot of conviction - that I am finally entering the stage of my life where restraining from sex actually makes sense. While I have definitely taken advantage of/used men for my own physical pleasure, I'm no longer craving the orgasm as much as I am the love and respect.

UPDATE: fuck this. i need an orgasm.

Friday, February 09, 2007

have you felt neglected?

hello my three loyal readers (mom, prisoner #647289-1827 and pat),

i know, it's been cold. and i am not just talking about the weather. you've had to live life without me for a month now and i can only imagine how empty things have felt for you.

the truth is, my computer broke (probably the result of one too many downloaded movies on adultvideoplanet.com - seriously a fabulous subscription porn service; only $29 or so a month and the videos are updated constantly) - and i have yet to muster up my best Erin Brokovitch cleavage and head to Best Buy to try to get it fixed for free.

but i am here now - and have quite a few things to say.

whether or not they are interesting...well, that is up to you.

~ella